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Another rambling. - Tina Marie's Ramblings
Red hair and black leather, my favorite colour scheme...
Another rambling.
I've been restless lately - both physically and mentally.

Physically, I'm not sleeping. I'm making excuses to get up and walk around the office instead of sitting at my desk. I can't sit still through a TV show. It's getting annoying. Mentally, it's hard to follow threads. Somehow, for me, this mood always makes me want to organize things - my thoughts, my apartment, my schedule. I want everything around me to be neat and ordered. But it never happens, because I get partway done and get distracted, and nothing gets finished. I know the mood will pass, in a week or two. I always regret that I can't seem to do something useful with all this energy - it just gets wasted pacing and worrying.

I had an interesting revelation this morning: Having a child is the ultimate in vulnerability. There are so many ways to be disappointed and hurt, in ways deeper then you could possibly be disappointed or hurt by anyone else. No wonder I've never had any interest in breeding!

I want to go to a boardwalk. I want to sit on the edge, lean my forehead on the railing, watch the ocean, and just drift. To the best of my knowledge, there is no boardwalk within 500 miles of here.

No DDR for me last night - I went out with the guys instead. I was feeling particularly anti-social, so I didn't stay long, and most of the time I was there I spent playing with the dog.

Tina's cool web page of the day: http://www.beekiller.net/. I'm not generally an fan of 'artistic' writing, but I really like the stuff there.

Current Mood: restless restless
Current Music: Heather Nova - Island

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